6 Days

...left of school! It’s crazy! I can’t believe I’m almost done!

This weekend had been AGONIZINGLY boring and my internet connection has been sucking worst than usual in my room.

I don’t think that I’m going to have a graduation party cuz I don’t think that many people would go to it, and I wouldn’t bother having one unless I am getting tons of stuff, which I probably wouldn’t. Plus all of my friends are having theirs that I can go to.

I will actually have a birthday party this year though, something that I haven’t done in a long time. I’m haven’t totally decided what I’m going to do yet, but I am leaning towards a 'black' theme. You know, watermelon, fried chicken, kool-aid, ghetto music... all of that. haha... no, I’m not racist, I just enjoy the stereotypical black culture.

I have come to the conclusion that I am an awful person. I know I may not *always* seem like it but I am... Like for instance, I am absolutely loving the spectacle of watching this one friend’s life fall into ruins. It is soooo much fun! Especially cuz most of it is avoidable. But that is really only the tip of the iceberg. If there was this epic battle between good and evil, I'd probably choose evil, just to shake things up. Or I'd choose the side that would benefit me the most, cuz I am a fairly selfish person...

I think too much when I am alone for long periods of time like this weekend. It has been very depressing in my head this weekend, I really want a therapist. It would be a major help for my stress that a result of my fucked up thought sequences. Sigh...

I will post again when my life starts getting more interesting... hopefully tomorrow or sometime this week.
Till then
~Anton