Sunday, January 31, 2010


Hey everybody!

Things are kinda falling apart, but not majorly. I have been making some kinda bad decisions, keeping secrets and I am having lots of depressing thoughts about love and such. But I’m currently feeling strong enough to deal with everything and be ok.

I am back in contact with my friend who said she fell for me. I am worried about her ability to move on and be ok. Yesterday I pissed her off by telling her to move on and today we are arguing that even if anything ever happened, I’m not a worthy enough person for her. I’m angry with myself and this whole situation that was rather preventable, but I know I will be ok in the end.

I had a really good time with my friends on Friday; they continue to be a great comfort and distraction from bad things.

That’s about all that is interesting for the moment. I haven’t asked this for a while so:
1) Is there anything you wanna know about me?
2) Is there anything I can do to make my blog better?
3) Is there anything I can help you with?
Thanks guys, you’re great!


  1. Hey Anton , sorry things are a little rough for you right now .. Have no doubt you going to get past it . Man on your blog you rock out on it .( Your suicide post I think many can relate too ! ) I love how you put yourself out there, the good and the bad. The way you do it .. thinking on the drugs issue that took balls to put it out there like that . Then again on the age of the girl you like.. Even thought you though people would hate you .. you put it out ... Keep blogging like that .. do believe you can help the ones that don't comment but just read... Yeah love to know more about you ( being not to detail of course , safety first) .. Such as music, you like. Movies you love.. that sort.. What kinda of cars do you like... and I how can you help me .. one thing I don't like that would help me alot actually..... it's a small thing that kinda of big and will take time...quit saying shit like ..I’m not a worthy enough person for her. stop thinking shit like that ... ( kicking your self really gets to me .. because I see something you don't and should... ( we all do things that are not so great , doesn't mean you not worthy ) . I see you are very worthy person that going to make somebody very wonderful boyfriend.. you got lots to offer... someone and the world... Don't let anyone tell you or make you think otherwise...

  2. Sorry you´re going through some rough time Anton, but you don´t have to go through things alone, sometimes the bravest thing you can do is admit you can´t handle things on your own and ask for help, we all make mistakes and can´t try to be perfect and talking about things helps a lot, why don´t you give someone a chance to help you, I´ve offered you my help for a long time, and still do, hope if you don´t accept my help at least accept someone you trust, but can´t stay there by yourself, give people a chance some time, Ok?


  3. Make your blog better? I like it just as it is! You are honest and open and truthful, and that is why we read your blog. We like you. And that is all we really need, is for you to keep sharing you with us!

    Life can be painful and overwhelming at times. And why oh why does everything come to a head all at once? I would really like to know the answer to that one! You can do this, just one wee step at a time, and with as much honestly as you can afford...

    Keep strong!

  4. Surreal Comment:

    Thanks for Following It's Getting Better and for linking to my blog! I've added you to the bloglist on It's GB - and thanks for reading it!

    Oh n - from the gist of your post and what other friends are saying - please just be you: you're a great guy and breath of fresh air, really compared to the drivel some of us write!

    If you stopped being you, then the blog would be dishonest and we have enough people around here pretending to be people they're are not, without you starting!

    Have yourself a little treat and put a smile on your face!

  5. Anton
    You are an amazing guy and it really worries me when I hear you trying to take the blame for things that you couldn't control, that's a very destructive path to follow, trust me I know!

    I don't think there's anything about your blog that needs changing, like everyone else I come here because you say things that are worth hearing.

    Just be yourself and take care


  6. hey i feel ur pain it suxs when stuff like that happens, but it will get better.