Saturday, February 6, 2010

Just keep swimming...

Without pain, we are without love.


Emotions suck. I cant decide if I'm happy or sad most of the time. My friends here, 3 in particular continue to become more and more important to me. We had another sleepover last night and had fun.

As far as my dad, he has been playing obnoxious music really loudly and is causing problems at work. He likes to sing and does so while at work. Some of his coworkers, who don't like him very much, complained and he got yelled at. He want ape shit on his boss and told him that they were just out to get him and threatened to take the company to court for letting a 'hostile work environment' continue. I don't care who you are, singing at school or in the work place is annoying as hell! Id be pissed if i had to work with that!

I don't feel like I can be honest with a lot of people anymore. Even some that i care about the most. I feel guilty, but if i don't keep my mouth shut i could cause some problems... Its also preventing me from saying some things on here that i normally would. I'm sure i will give in soon enough. Its making me feel terrible

That girl who said she kinda fell for me started a blog. She is a reallly good writer and her first post is largely about me. It really made me feel rather disappointed in myself. If you are interested, here is the link:

I'm going to Atlanta at the end of next week. Cant wait!


  1. Anton, you have my sympathy with the whole Dad singing thing. Mine used to come down every morning whistling and it drove me nuts. I nearly told him to shut up once but stopped just in time, no point giving another excuse.

    I'm really saddened that you feel you can't speak openly but then again I can understand it, I just hope you can find a way through it all before it gets too much to keep bottled up.

    I'm going to have a look at that blog, to see if you should be disappointed in yourself :)

    Take care

  2. Anton! I didn't mean to make you disapointed with yourself... Sorry! And as for the dad-singing-thing, I can relate- Lizzy. Thanks for the ad-thingy :)
    I love you!

  3. In the end the only opinion that really matters is your own. I don't say that in a mean way, I just firmly believe that until you can feel comfortable with yourself, then you shouldn't take the opinions of others too seriously...

    And yes I can see the irony there... hahahaha!!!