Sunday, September 26, 2010


Hey! So nothing has calmed down really, but I have made some time in the past couple days to have to myself.

School is slightly less stressful in some aspects, but more so in others. The results from my first test weren't so good... a 72%, but I will actually study better for the next class in that class. Me and my friend who I have school with (and don't like) have made a new friend that we have been hanging out with a bit. We went to his house one day after school because he lives super close to the school. He has some really awesome dogs and we went to a few cool stores, that I need to go back to sometime. One is this new age store that my friends would like, so we will probably go Wednesday instead of going to QSA. One of our co-chairs pissed Jordan off because Jordan said he didn't really like our last meeting on a Facebook discussion board and then was told to "Just stop coming" if he didn't like the meetings. But it was a really awful meeting where the Christians came in and told us they loved us and we were all children of god and kinda shoving their views down one the throats of one of the least Christian groups at school. But I'm sure we will go again soon, just not for a couple weeks. Wednesdays are still gonna be designated as days we all try to get together and hang out. I love my friends so much! haha

I kinda got a job today! I get paid $9 an hour to go door to door for Democrats in New Mexico for the elections in a couple weeks. I'm excited to have a little work, even if its only gonna be for the next couple weeks. I also got registered to vote today. My parents and I went to a harvest festival in Coralles, which is a cool little town. It wasn't so fun, but its will wake my parents happy and probably keep them sober, which they have been. I also went to a family night thing at my dad's aftercare program, which was interesting, and I'm sure it made him feel supported. I still hate him, but the happier he is, the easier life is for me...

I have had one of my infamous change-of-hearts. Daniel has recently started annoying me and I'm back on the look for anything, although I'm really just not that interested in many people. I have also been depressed the past week or so, just thinking about flaws and all sorts of negative stuff, but I think its getting better. These though patterns seem to be pretty cyclical with me.

At a mud hut party we had Jordan and I sat on the roof and talked a lot about a lot of stuff, and it was probably the most intimate (in a non-romantic way) moment I have had with a single person in some time. He said he and some of my other friends are genuinely concerned for me and I explained some of my emotions and how important he is to me and we got a better understanding of each other and he just helped me out a lot. We also talked about less important stuff, but it was a really good experience. The rest of the evening was fun too.
The next day when we were driving around a creepy old man drove up next to us while we were laughing and said something about how we were having a good time, and he had to have fun by himself and started making this jacking off motion, so we laughed awkwardly and drove off pretty quickly.

I got in a fight of sorts with a woman at wal-mart the other night. I was a person or 2 behind her in line, and her credit card wasn't working so a manager had to come over to help the cashier. The whole time the woman was being a bitch to both of them. i got fed up really fast with both her attitude and the slow line, so I picked my stuff up to leave, but before I left i told her " you know, just because you may have had a bad day, that doesn't mean you have to be a cunt to people who are just trying to do their job." and Then I left after a little smile exchanged with the cashier. Then in the parking lot, my box of sodas broke and I had to clean the up from all over and she walked out and just passed me, laughing, to which I told her to go to hell. it was entertaining.

Next weekend my friends and I are going to the Cocorosie concert! I'm so excited! they are so weird! And my friends who moved away are coming for it too! I will post a couple of their songs... So weird!

Umm... I think that is everything. So yeah!
Post again soon...


  1. Jordan seems like he may be a good friend to you - and, gosh, we all need one of those! And just because we're gay doesn't mean that every friendship we have HAS to have a sexual innuendo running through it.

    Oh and really - calling inadequate women names in supermarkets - whatever next! But I know what you mean - it's so tempting!

  2. Are you OK, kid?? It seems from the feeling I got, reading the post,. that you're a little down... I guess it's been a tough year, eh? Well, what's past is done... gotta go foward, the best that you can, and, the job, even tho it's temporary, is a positive thing... And, I know that you have been hurt by your dad's drinking, but, taking the higher road, like you did, is the adult response, and, hopefully, he gets better, and, it sticks this time... Also, I'm puzzled about the meeting with the 'Christians'... Was it a group that you invited to meet with yours?? What, btw is your group that you describe as 'the least Christian'... just wondering... I mean, is everything about Christianity absurd or offensive to you?? luv, tman<3

  3. I havent been too down, just average. and yes, the christian group was invited by ours to come speak to us by the Queer Straight Alliance (very non christian group, as was supported by most peoples reaction to the meeting) officers. And not everything about christians to me s absurd and offensive, just a great deal. The problem i had with this group is that they were preaching way too much at us and trying to push their own adgenda.