tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1247093177788774712024-03-05T01:19:43.129-07:00Anton's HausMy name is Anton and im a 18 year old, gay, college kid who lives in New Mexico. This is a story of my life, my views and im insanity.
Enjoy!Anton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.comBlogger158125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-91546428312888690582011-06-18T23:09:00.002-06:002011-06-18T23:35:33.325-06:00Back in New MexicoHello!<br />So I have been home for a few days now. I haven't been having the social life I would have liked to come back to, but that is alright. I really considered this being the 'last post' but I think I will wait a while longer.<br /><br />Utah was a lot of fun, I kept busy and saw a lot of people. Pride was probably the best part. I made out with a cute boy to piss off some protesters and it was just overall a good day, besides my sunburn. I also hooked up with a fairly cute guy up there. I had my birthday while I was up there (thank you Alan for the birthday wish) and I got like $300 worth of clothes and $500 cash, which I have no complaints about. It was the best birthday I have had in at least 3 years though. It may not have been the best visit up there, but I enjoyed myself.<br /><br />Things at home are alright. My parents are both sober, for now. I expect that to change soon though, just cuz of my pessimistic nature. My dads company is being sold and there is a good chance he will lose his job within a year, which will set him off. Also, money is generally just really tight with my parents now. They are strugling with some of the bills. I don't know what the fuck they do with our money, cuz we should have more based on their incomes and our lifestyle. oh well... I have started paying for more of my own stuff to help them out. I am going to start looking for a job in early July, so I can become even more financially independent.<br /><br />~If~ they start drinking again, I am not gonna deal with it this time. My plan is as follows:<br />-Withdraw all the money from my bank accounts, including the joint one I have with my mom.<br />-Pack up ALL of my stuff I can fit into my car, take it to a friends, and live with them until the end of the semester, and pay a couple hundred dollars rent to help them.<br />-Finish whatever semester I am in, and drop out of UNM.<br />-Drive myslef and all my shit to Utah, and move in with my godmother.<br />-Take a year off of school to work and save money.<br />-Enroll at the University of Utah, get an apartment and start my life and never speak to my parents again.<br /><br />I am done fighting them, and this is what I am going to do if they are gonna start pulling dumb shit again.<br /><br />One of my other big stress factors at the moment is the fact that my cars transmission might be dying. I'm not sure, and it is still running, but idk what the hell I am gong to do if I need a new car. ugh.<br /><br />I have been somewhat more suicidal than I have been in about 6 years for the past several weeks. No worries, I wont do anything, but things just see much more bleak and pointless and nothing matters as much as it used to, not that it did much in the 1st place. If I had the money I would consider therapy, but that isnt gonna happen, so I will stick with my self medication.<br /><br />The next couple weeks are probably going to be pretty crazy. I plan on partying a lot and maybe trying some new stuff. I have good self control, so no need to worry about me. I am just gonna enjoy my summer and thats that. Warped Tour is in a little over a week, and that will be my big event for the summer. It should be lots of fun.<br /><br />I will probably be concluding this blog in a month or so when things look more stable, and I can leave you with closure with the parent drama and such.<br />Love you all<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com14tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-195971738841411132011-05-18T15:37:00.003-06:002011-05-18T16:49:10.180-06:00Starting to shut downHey!<br />So I am on sumer break and I am pretty happy about it. I have been having lost of fun with my friends. I ended up going to Las Cruces 2 weekends ago... it was a crazy weekend and loads of fun. I kinda ended up cheating on my BF, but all my judgment was long gone by that point. I think I am going to break up with him tomorrow anyways. I am not really looking forward to doing it, but I just feel like its best I do before I go to Utah. I am leaving in 6 days.<br />I got hip tattoos! The right hip is a sun and the left is a moon. I tried uploading pictures on here, but it didnt work. :( I cant wait to get more done.<br />I am probably gonna be deleting sometime in the next few weeks. I have lost most of my interest in blogger, and it seems more of a chore than a hobby. It really helped me for the 1st year that I had it though. But I am hardly posting once a month these days anyways...<br />I will probably have a couple more posts though in the next couple weeks.<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-74115266990938293542011-04-29T12:34:00.003-06:002011-04-29T12:50:08.950-06:00Ending Freshman YearHello!<br />Nothing too exciting has happened here lately, so thats why I havent posted in a couple weeks. School has been alright, we have finals in 2 weeks, so I am kinda stressed about that, but I think I will do alright in everything. Also, I got my classes for next semester. I am taking U.S. History up till 1877, Public Speaking, American Politics and Evolution and Human Emergence. So I am pretty excited about that.<br />I got my Warped Tour ticket, and I can't wait for that. It should be lots of fun! I also got my plane tickets for my summer trip to Utah I will be there May 24th to June 14th. So I will be having my birthday there, so hopefully that will be fun. I will also be there for one of my friends graduation. Then I will get back here, probably party hard for 2 weeks here, go to Las Cruces for a week or so for warped tour and party double hard there and then get serious about getting a job in July and tone down the partying and such.<br />Um... I've been kinda depressed for the past week or so. Nothing too major, I have just felt like shit. I am gonna spend the day with my boyfriend today, so hopefully that will cheer me up. I do think I will end it with him the week or so before I go to Utah though. He is sweet, but we just arent compatible and I kinda wanna be single over the summer anyways. I think it will be harder than I am expecting to end it with him, but I feel like if I dont just tell him I will end up cheating, telling him and then having a much nastier break up. I wanna end it on good terms.<br />I'm pretty sure that I'm gonna dye my hair purple before I go to Utah, and I will probably keep it like that for a month or so before I go back to blond.<br />I have kept up with working out 3 or 4 times a week for the mot part. its nothing too serious, but I definitely wanna lose 10 pounds or so.<br />Well, thats about it.<br /><3<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-42428188352602534062011-04-11T14:56:00.002-06:002011-04-11T15:23:08.986-06:00WarpedHello :)<br />Things have been going pretty well for the most part lately.<br /><br />The whole Jordan issue thing is definitely behind me. I have been hanging out with him a lot recently, more than anyone else actually. Its felt good to have one of my best friends back, especially as I grow further and further apart from some of my other friends.<br /><br />School is also going pretty well. My grads are still kinda slipping, just cuz I'm in the last month or so, but I'm still gonna get all A's and B's. I have a lot of studying to do for my tests this week, but I will get around to that this evening.<br /><br />I have been talking a lot to this really cute boy who lives in New York. He makes me happy and is one of the like 3 people I would get into a long distance relationship with. But I do have my boyfriend, so that doesnt really matter. Bobby has been annoying me a bit lately though. He is just too indecisive. But he slept over the other night, which was fun. I like him a lot when we are both intoxicated. haha :)I will probably break it off in a month or so. I wanna be single over the summer I think.<br /><br />I have been listening to a lot of punk and post-hardcore type music lately, and I just found out that Warped Tour is coming to Las Cruces this year. Warped is basically a big concert with a whole bunch of those types of bands. My aunt said she will buy my ticket for me, which Is awesome cuz I am pretty broke. So as long as I can get at least one other of my friends to commit to going, and like 5 of them want to, I will have her get my ticket. I am so excited!!!!<br /><br />So that is Junt 29th, so I will probably try to go to Utah for 3 weeks at the end of may/beginning of June and spend my birthday there. Then I will get back in time to start looking for a job. If I dont have one by the beginning of July, I will start trying really herd and look at places I would much less prefer. But I kinda wanna wait till I get done with my summer travels. I am really broke though, I think I will have to take some money out of my savings account to get me through till I get my birthday money.<br /><br />I am also playing with the idea of deactivating my blogger. I probably wont for several months. I probably will once my tumblr has more followers than this does. I just enjoy tumblr more, and I can post rants on there too. I just don't feel dedicated enough to blogger to keep it up. But Idk, I am just thinking about possibilities. I will be here for a few more months at least.<br /><br /><3<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-5049305222314562512011-04-01T15:37:00.002-06:002011-04-01T15:53:40.063-06:00Peace and PartiesHello!<br />I just thought I would post a little update.<br /><br />So the other night Jordan came over and we hung out for a few hours. 1st thing he dis was apologize for being a douche bag for the past 3 weeks or so. It was pretty much everything I wanted to hear from him. He even talked about what a hypocrite he was and it was just really nice. So peace has been made and things are returning to normal.<br /><br />Last night my friends came over and drank. It was their first time meeting Bobby. I was kinda anxious, but everyone liked each other and it was really comfortable. I thank alcohol for easing the awkwardness. But the whole night was fun. A lot of fun. haha<br /><br />Oh, and this one really cute boy i only kind of know from macroeconomics apparently got my number from jordan a couple days ago. He is really annoying, but really cute. He hasn't texted me yet though, but just the knowledge that he asked made me feel good.<br /><br />He is always at these parties that happen every friday, so I am kinda wanting to go to the one tonight, but that depends on if anyone else wants to. I am gonna try to get Bobby to sleep over again tomorrow night. He is really nice to be with. haha<br /><br />Thats about it for now!<br />Byeeee<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-10591290817907504942011-03-29T23:03:00.001-06:002011-03-29T23:05:33.524-06:00P.S....just in the hour or so since my last post down below, I REACHED 100 FOLLOWERS!!!!! :D<br />Than you all so much! I love each of you and you all mean a lot to me. Thanks!!!!Anton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-56216915373583908192011-03-29T20:08:00.002-06:002011-03-29T20:50:52.380-06:00Life goes onHey!<br />Well, not a ton has been going on in my live. It seems like I am kinda reverting to my antisocial, friendless existence that I used to have. Well, not really. I just haven't been seeing really any of my friends in ages. They have their own things going on or whatever... It feels like all my relationships are kinda falling apart except for a few.<br />The most angering is definitely the situation with Jordan. I may have talked about this before, but basically he ditched us all, except Sonia, for his boyfriend, who he just started seeing and who is moving very soon. I wouldn't have a problem if they had been in a long relationship with him, but he rushed into this thing that is obviously gonna hurt him in the end, so I have no remorse for him. He is choosing to hurt himself. The REAL issue is that he was the one who lead our efforts to kick Brittany out of the group after she chose her scum bag boyfriend over us. Jordan is just being a fucking hypocrite.<br />I would never leave my friends for a boy. I will always honor plans I have already made with my friends and I would never stop hanging out with them for anyone. I balance friends and romance and I don't get why other people cant fucking do that and they have to throw something good away.<br />Anyways, he has been all offended that we felt hurt about his betrayal and things have been pretty tense between him/Sonia and me/Sam, with Steph in the middle. I have seem him once in the past 2 1/2 weeks and that wasn't the most pleasant experience, but it was okay. And then today I saw him leaving and he gave me the coldest little wave he could. So Idk, I guess that friendship might be over, which sucks, but I guess he might come around. whatever.<br /><br />Anyways, things are going okay with my boyfriend. He is sweet and treats me well and makes me happy. I don't particularly like him a TON, but we have some good times. I think the major reason I settled for him is that 1) he is cute 2) My social life is going to hell and I need someone new in my life that I can rely on seeing and 3) I kinda want a relationship, and he was there. Overall I am grateful I am in the relationship, but I also dont plan on it lasting more than a few months. Who knows, its the best thing I have going for myself at the moment. Most other aspects of my life are kinda bleh.<br /><br />I am trying really hard to get all A's this semester, but I have so little motivation to study these days. I know I wont get worse than a B in any class, but A's would be nice.<br /><br />So thats it for now.<br />ttyl!<br /><3<br />~AnotnAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-2476314800961849742011-03-18T13:03:00.002-06:002011-03-18T13:27:26.360-06:00The BoyfriendHello!<br />So first things first, Las Cruses was a lot of fun. I had a great time with my friends and going to a couple parties. There were a few surprises down there, but over all it was a lot of fun and I dont really regret my decisions. It was a good experience to have once. The thing about me as opposed to a lot of people my age who like trying new things, is that I dont have an 'addictive' personality. I am just curious and I like knowing what things are like, but thats about the extent of it. But anyways, it was a good visit and it definitely made me happy.<br /><br />So the other big news is that I have been on a few dates with this kid I met through Connexion and who also knows my friend Stephanie, and were kinda going out now. He graduated from my school in the same year, but I never new him, which isnt so weird considering we had nearly a thousand in our grade.<br />Anyways, his name is Bobby and he is pretty cute. He is not exactly the smartest person in the world, and I think its probably cuz he did too many drugs in high school. I honestly dont think we are built to last more than a couple months or so, but I am just bored and I really wanted something new in my life. He one of those really 'damaged' people, which I kinda have an issue with. I feel bad for everything that he has had to deal with, but I'm not a care-taking kind of person, I suck at empathy and healing people and I have little tolerance for some of the stuff he says. I prefer when I am the more damaged one, its so much easier. But there a lot about him that I like, and some things I dont like s much, so idk, its something to keep me happy for a while, and it may ending up as more than that. He does make me happy though, and thats all I care about at the moment. We'll see what happens, but I'm keeping my expectations low.<br /><br />So thats about all of it.<br />Post again soon!<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-45588626953582215502011-03-05T11:57:00.003-07:002011-03-05T12:48:35.962-07:00On the brink of disaster.So I know I haven't been posting lately, but I have been doing a good job of ignoring things I don't want to talk about and the things I am willing to talk about seem pointless to share. So this post has the potential to be very long and kinda depressing. I'm really not looking for judgement or advice or anything. I just want to vent. This is mostly <span style="font-style:italic;">just for me</span> to sort out my thoughts than to ask for opinions on my insanity.<br /><br />So pretty much the past like month or so things haven't been going so well. I have not seen too much of my friends here compared to usual. I have been panicking about my future with having a job and being alone and ever being successful or happy. And I have been having these problems with my best friend, Elsa, which has by far been the worst.<br />For those of you who don't know, we live 450 miles apart and most of our relationship is based on constant texting. Well, we haven't been talking as much and what we do talk about isn't as meaningful as usual. This is for a lot of reasons I guess. Shes been bust with school and various other things and I have been generally distant, and I am not even sure why I have been. She also has this thing going on that has caused her to be kinda absent for long periods of time every day or two. During those times I get way to stuck in my head and I feel alone and to an extent, jealous. I wont go into details of it out of respect for her privacy... but that has been causing me to detach for the past week or so. I fully support it and I am happy about it, I just need to get used to it.<br />Also, as I mentioned in my last post, my friends here and I are planning on going to Las Cruces again soon, next weekend actually. This time the plan is to try ecstasy. A few of them down there have already tried it and those of us who haven't are going to try it. But this has, to understate it, caused a lot of tension between Elsa and I. I have wanted to try it for over a year, because as I understand it, it is the most amazing feeling, and I am naturally curious, but she strongly disproves. I feel like I need to make it clear that all I want is to TRY it, not depend it for happiness. And I have done my research on it, this is an educated decision. I like feeling detached from reality for periods of time. It helps me come back and focus on what I need to do. Also I like the intimate bonds I always feel from trying things with people for the first time, like when I first drank or smoked weed. Lately I have felt like I have had nothing. All my friends have been distant, I have been as successful as ever romantically and I have greatly reduced my typical forms of being in an altered state, out of respect for Elsa's wishes. Those are kinda the things that keep me going, meaningful friend relationships, semi-meaningful romantic/sexual relationships, and an escape from reality, but I haven't had any of those for a long time, and its slowly breaking me down because I am too trapped in my self destructive mind and I have been over stressing about my future in addition. So I decided to go through with rolling in Cruces. But it is creating a lot of problems for me although I am 95% sure it will make me feel much much better. I feel selfish for wanting it, but I also feel like shes selfish for keeping me from one of the few things that will help me feel like I have anything going for me. I partially understand her reasons though, and I respect them, but if I keep going down the road I am on, it will lead to me hurting myself in much much worse ways. Its a gamble deciding to roll and I hope it works out, but I really feel like it will help me.<br /><br />The past probably 2 weeks has been the longest period of time in over 5 years when I have been relatively suicidal. I would never go through with it, because I know what it would do to the people who care about me, so I would rather suffer alone than cause them all pain. Thats just way too selfish... even if its what I want a lot of the time. But I assure you, there is no reason to worry. I do plan on talking to my parents about getting me on some anti-depressants. I would like therapy, but I don't know if we can afford it, but I think anti-depressants would do me a lot of good.<br /><br />So with all that said, don't worry about me, I will be fine, and before you give me a long winded comment about why I shouldn't or what a horrible person I am, I know already. Its stupid and selfish, but I need something to change.<br />Please refer to the 1st paragraph before you let loose on me. I don't need to feel worse than I have been.<br /><br />With lots of love<br />~Anton<br /><3Anton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com9tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-5842738397475506982011-02-21T21:21:00.004-07:002011-02-21T21:48:59.475-07:00jagdfgnlakbgkj;anfs;nafsg;lngf;kjHey! So yeah, I couldn't thinnk of a post title, hence ^ that. This weekend has been one of the most boring ever. Well, not really, but it has been kinda lame and I have had way too much time to myself.<br /><br />Basically I did nothing productive, even the little but of homework i had, which I will have to do on the bus or in astronomy tomorrow. I did go to a party one night with Jordan and Sonia. It was pretty fun and full of moderately attractive gay boys and some straight girls. I mostly just sat around and talked to Sonia and occasionally some other people. There was a guy there who reminded me sooooo much of John. So it kinda disgusted me cuz i truly hate his guts, but it also brought up some old feelings. Anyways, that party ended, so we went to another, which seemed interesting, but Sonia was leaving and Jordan was super drunk (and ended up at someone else's house) so I left with Sonia and ended up getting home at about 4.<br />Then the night after I hung out with my friends for like 3 hours. But that has been the extent of all my social interactions for the past 4 days, which has been painfully little for me.<br /><br />Also my parents are being annoying tits. When they are sober they are obnoxious as fuck, when they drinking they throw all our money away and fuck things up. There is NO middle ground that I can tolerate. I'd definitely rather have this then the drinking, but I still hate them both so much. In the middle of the week I was seriously considering moving to Las Cruses and just saying fuck it, which I may still do for next semester. I may also just try to rent a house here with Sam and Steph. IDK, but I hate being around these idiots.<br />Also, my moms short term disability that she is getting for her surgery is nearly a month late, so I gave her a $200 loan, and I am getting $300 back when the money gets here. And they are sending her more than she was expecting, so hopefully some more of that money will make it my way. I would LOVE to get a new car.<br /><br />Um... I also really hate my hair. It is ridiculous and nasty and annoying and I want someone else's hair. Also I wanna get my 1st tattoo soon. I just cant decide if i want it on my right ankle, right fore are, right shoulder or one of my wrists. Also I kinda wanna get my lip pierced. I cant decide if i want spider bites or just my left side though... I need to be less indecisive. Hmm...<br /><br />Well, I think thats it for now<br />Post again laters<br /><3<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-27810845463445982032011-02-13T19:42:00.002-07:002011-02-13T21:00:04.292-07:00The WeekendSO I just got back from Las Cruses a few hours ago. In summary, Friday night was one of the best of my life, and made the whole trip unbelievably good. The drives there and back were pretty uneventful and I drove the whole way both ways, which I was fine with cuz my friends suck at driving.<br /><br />We got there and we got settled with our newish friend, Nia and a totally new person who was kinda an obnoxious bitch, but tolerable. Then eventually Bri and Jess show up with Andy. After they got there we started blasting music and played with glow sticks and started doing some shit and having fun. Then we went to our 1st party of the night and we met some people who went to high school with us and stayed there for an hour or so. Then we went to a kegger where this cool band playing and a ton of people and stayed there for another hour or so, but only Steph and I were having a blast, but we met some other people there who were throwing there own party later which we went to after a quick return to their apartment. We spent about 6 hours at that last party and got kinda fucked up, but I ended up drinking far less than I would have expected. At that party there was this guy who had these gloves with flashing colored lights at the ends of these gloves and in the dark they provided an AWESOME light show. haha, and the same guy also gave a couple of us in the group fantastic back massage. We just chilled there for a few hours and various other things happened, but some areas are kinda fuzzy.<br /><br />The next day everyone but me slept in till 2, i got up at and just watched TV. We saw some more old friends and met some new ones when they came over that afternoon and we played Wii and just chilled. That night we went to this frat party that was surprisingly small and kinda lame. Beer pong was fun though we lost. Then we sang happy birthday for the guy whose party it was, but one of his frat brothers cake slammed him really hard and busted a couple of his teeth. So that party died and we went back to the apartment and had our own chill party and had an early night, well, 2 am, which is early for there. This mornig we got breakfast and said a teary goodbye, but we have plans on going back in almost exactly a month when we will go to this amazing gay club in El Paso and more fun stuff. I cant wait. I miss those friends so much and I have such a good time when I'm down there with them.<br /><br />I have been kinda pissy since I got home cuz I was so much happier there, but if I was there a lot longer I would have got annoyed being around so many people. I wanted to meet this one gay friend of theirs, but I never had the chance. Maybe next time. So tomorrow I will just get ready for school and whatever.<br /><br />I have taken like 2 hours to work on this cuz I am watching the Grammys and I keep getting distracted.<br />Post again soon!<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-1033091357372775912011-02-10T21:02:00.003-07:002011-02-10T21:15:07.575-07:00Going out of townHey guys. I just wanna give you a quick update, cuz I still have to pack. This weekend 2 of my friends and me are going to Las Cruses to see some of our old high school friends who go to school there. I am really excited.<br />This past week has been pretty good. We had Stephs 19th birthday party and I have just seen a bit of my friends and had school. I had my 1st test in Macroeconomics and I am pretty sure I aced it.<br />BORN THIS WAY by Lady Gaga premiers tomorrow!!!!!!!!!! I am so excited!<br />Um... thats all I can think of now. But I gotta go pack now, so I will update you all after I get back. Sorry, if its a but boring on here lately<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-69517625955248137992011-02-01T19:40:00.002-07:002011-02-01T20:01:16.058-07:00Land of Ice and DeathSo the past 24 hours or so has been interesting.<br /><br />Last night I met up with all my friends to go see The Rite and have a sleep over. First off, The Rite wasnt even scary and hardly interesting. Country Strong was much better. Then we say in a Mexican restaurant for like an hour from about 11 to midnight. We downloaded this really cool app on out phones though called Zombie Run. It tracks your gps location and it has zombies chase you and you have to run away. So we kinda played around with tat for a bit.<br /><br />Then we went back to my friends and just hung out for a while. I got up at my usual time to go to school and I showered and all that. But New Mexico is having this insane cold spell, tonight we are getting well below 0, and the roads were super icy. But I decided to go to my other friend who i carpool with and 1/2 way there (its like a mile from one friends house to the other) I hear UNM is on a 2 hour delay, so I go back and get on Tumblr for 2 hours. Then about the time Im supposed to go in for the delay I decide to wane my friend up so she can lock up behind me. So after I start my car and almost fall on my face on the way there from the ice, I get a text message from UNM saying it has been canceled, so I go back in and try to sleep, cuz I couldn't really last night, but that didn't happen.<br /><br />SO we kinda get ready and by that time the roads are clear and we go get breakfast and do a bit of shopping and all of us are in super mean bitchy moods, which made for interesting conversations. We then go and hang out some more and play a game we made last year, which was pretty fun.<br /><br />By about 6 the streets were really icy and terrifying. A lot of them are now closed and it took about 40 minutes to drive the 10 or 15 miles to my house. I say so many cops and wrecks, it was exciting and terrifying all at once.<br /><br />Oh, and my stupid school district that I graduated from last year was the only one in the metro area to not close and from what I heard there was over $50,000 in damage done to student and staff cars from the horrible conditions. I do not miss that place at times like these.<br /><br />I am loving having alone time at home to just be with myself, I have been with people for so long :P My friend is trying to convince me to add this one bi boy of facebook that she thinks would get along well with me, but idk... it seems weird.<br /><br />So yeah, I though I would share my interesting day.<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-43767377457072733402011-01-31T13:42:00.002-07:002011-01-31T14:50:30.742-07:00Onto FebruaryHey!<br />So things have been... odd. I have lots of free time, but I feel like I have very little time to get things done that I need too. I reeeally need to write my resume to apply for this summer internship, but it sounds like soooooo much effort.<br /><br />I;m getting ready to start looking for a job, but the fact that I have so much spending money at the moment is discouraging me from looking. But I will, soon.<br /><br />I found out John has a tumblr. I kinda wanna follow him to make it reeeeally awkward, but I could see a lot of drama coming out of me having any contact with him.<br /><br />I have been considering renting a house with a couple of my friends this fall, but I don;t know if I could handle being around them so much. I love them, I just need a lot of completely alone time. Also, I want to save money for when I move out of the state after college, and possibly out of the U.S. at some point.<br /><br />Apparently one of you are old friends with Jordan and found him again from my Tumblr account, so thats pretty nifty. :) When he told me it was a "Whoa, small world" moment.<br /><br />Tonight I am going to see The Rite with my friends. I think it looks terrifying, and it is hard to scare me. <br /><br />Thats about all the news here.<br />ttyl :)<br />AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-80387699392200952112011-01-24T19:27:00.002-07:002011-01-24T19:41:55.953-07:00New and OldHello! Sorry I am not posting on her as much as I have in the past. Ive been busy and to be honest, Tumbler is what I am more interested in. But at least for the time I will keep this cuz I like using it as a journal.<br /><br />So school is pretty good. My Astronomy class is huge but the professor tries to feep in interesting. Macroeconomics is possibly my favorite, every example he gives of an economic situation involves alcohol and hos. And this guy is like 80 and swears every other word but he is also very good at explaining everything. My Sociology teacher is really hot and the subject is really interesting. My Statistics teacher is a twice devoiced ex-military ass hole. But the subject is really easy, i have the class with one of my old friends who was one of my 1st real friends in New Mexico and there is a cute boy in the class. Linguistics is hell. its at the end of the day, the teacher is boring and awkward and the material is tedious and pointless. I am considering dropping it before it is too late... but it counts as an english credit.<br /><br />I am really into the British version of Skins. I think it is a really interesting show. The American version isnt nearly as good, but I will keep watching it. I am also listening to a lot of music that I used to not even like. A lot of it is punk and I have even downloaded some screamo. not like hardcore screamo, but stuff with it in it. I like a ot of it. Im also listening to a lot of dubstep, and then all my old stuff.<br /><br />This semester is gonna be a lot like the old one I think, but I don't know. I am kinda lost at the moment and just going with what ever comes my way...<br /><br />Hope everyone is well<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-89770542696512185572011-01-17T19:09:00.002-07:002011-01-17T19:51:09.158-07:00New BeginningHello! sorry about my absence for the past 3 weeks. I didnt have much of a chance to post in Utah and I have been working on getting settled back in.<br />Utah was lots of fun. I got to a lot (but not enough) time with my best friend and I got to know a couple of her other friends. One in particular I really like. I saw a bunch of my other friends too and had fun. My god mother is apparently going through with her move 30 miles north of the city which I can live with, but im not happy about.<br /><br />Since I got home I have seen a little too much of my friends. 2 of them that I was previously closest too, Jordan and Sonia, have been getting on my nerves relentlessly with their perpetual over happiness and elitestness and secretiveness. But one good thing came out of it. I am totally not interested in Jordan romantically anymore... yay! haha<br /><br />School starts tomorrow. I cant wait for the new semester. I really need a job, and I will start looking for one very soon.<br /><br />Sorry this was a short post, but I have a lot to do tonight for school. I will post again soon<br />AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-11925292727682545742010-12-27T15:29:00.003-07:002010-12-27T15:35:30.401-07:00VacationHello! so I am leaving tomorrow for Utah and I will be gone for 2 weeks. I dont know if I will post at all during that time, but I might. I have stuff set to post itself on my tumblr though.<br />Yesterday was nice I suppose. We went to a nice restaurant and the Bodies Exhibit for my dads birthday. Today is his actual birthday and he is currently spending it in the waiting room while my mother gets ankle surgery. 9this her like, 13th joint surgery. I went to lunch with my friend and later I am gonna go babysit my friends while they try shrooms. I'm pretty much done backing at this point, but like usual, I know there are like 5 things I'm forgetting.<br />Anyways, if I don't post for a while, everyone have a good New Years!!!!<br /><3<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-15724273344851477642010-12-24T14:04:00.002-07:002010-12-24T15:37:48.477-07:00T'was the night before x-mas...hey :)<br />So I leave for Utah in days! I'm excited. I need a break from my life here... being in one place continually for more than a couple months doesn't really suit me.<br /><br />I have been so exhausted lately and I haven't been able to get to sleep till like 3 so I end up getting up at 11 at the earliest. i hate it! I have also been feeling alone today. i want someone to just spend the whole day with but none of my friends are really what I'm looking for. I kinda want someone new.<br /><br />I got all my christmas shopping done the other day and spent way more than I would have liked, but I guess I will live.<br /><br />I don't plan on doing much for christmas besides lunch with my family and maybe seeing a friend or two. And Im not gonna really be grtting anything cuz I got my phone earlier. The 26th i think I'm spending the day with my parents in celebration of my dads birthday. The 27th my mom is getting ankle surgery and that will be fun. I have plans to have lunch with my friend during that, cuz I think both of need someone to talk to. My other friends are trying shrooms that day. If it wasnt for my mom getting surgery, my fear of alienating certain people I really care about and me leaving the day after for Utah, I would probably try 1/2 an ounce or so with them. But I have decided I wont. I have always been curious about them though. Even my mom recommended them. Then the 28th I am leaving and my grandma is getting in to take care of my mom. I am so happy I will totally miss her both here and in Utah.<br /><br />Last night I went to see the lights at the botanical gardens with my friends. It was really beautiful!!! Today I feel like being alone. Well, not really. But given what options for people that I do have to be with, I would choose being alone.<br /><br />I am hopefully read a lot over my trip to Utah. I have a lot to do there and not enough time!<br />Anyways, imma go on a walk now... ttyl!<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-73508746471949389722010-12-18T14:30:00.004-07:002010-12-18T15:04:30.412-07:00Advice from the Other SideHello!<br />So I have been up to quite a lot since my last post. Finals are 100% done, although I still have an essay to write. I really doubt my ability to write it though because I have a good grade in the class already and it seems like a lot of work that i reeeeally dont wanna do for 5%-10% of my whole grade. so far i know i got an 86% in one class and a 96% in another, so I am doing fine.<br /><br />Me and a couple of my friends had an end of the semester party friday and it was really good cuz it was just me and a couple that im really close to. The morning after we woke up to a beautiful rain storm. We went down town and we all had a session with a psychic. As far as they go, she was very good. I dont particularly believe in it and she missed a lot of really big things, she had lots of good advice. She identified the majority of my pain and misery as my parents, she knew the best years of my life where i could truly express my creativity and skills was from 7 and back (when I was in Salt Lake City), she knew I liked history and anthropology and social sciences, she knew when i wasn't believing her and a whole bunch of other things she shouldn't have know. Also, she was like waiting for us when we went up and its almost like she was expecting us.<br />She told me that I need to find a better place for healing cuz I am so damaged and that I need to not be so hard on myself and I should stop telling myself I am not deserving. She said I need to stop trying to live up to peoples standards cuz that will really hurt me and that I need ways to express my creativity and skills that I have become dissociated with. When I asked her about love/romance she said I need to stop trying so hard, stop looking, and learn to love myself more first. She also said that she could clearly see one of the people I am in love with as if he was sitting next to me... and he was. Jordan was there, it was kinda awkward, but i dont think he noticed anything odd. She said my "twin flame" is current walking the earth and to not give up.<br />So then both Jordan and our other friend went, but for our other friend, Jordan and I went to go get coffee at the biggest hipster coffee shop in Albuquerque. By then the rain was turning to snow, which was super exciting! I plan on seeing her again, probably alone, before school starts.<br /><br />After we got done with that we went to this cool metaphysical store I have been to once before and then back to Jordans. Up where we live there was much more snow, so we got all our snow gear on and went out to the golf course to play. We rolled these giant snow balls that were 3-4 feet in diameter and weighed well over 100 pounds. With them we made a fantastic, but incomplete snow fort. After that, we went sledding on some of the hills. Over all, it was a pretty amazingly fantastic day.<br /><br />Yesterday I had a snow ball fight with Luis, who I saw earlier in the week too. I like being able to see him occasionally again. That evening I got together with several of my friends, most of whom live out of town or I just dont see often. We went to go see the Black Swan. It was a great movie!!!<br /><br />Umm... thats about all I can think of. Oh yeah, DADT was repealed. I'm one of those few gays who didnt mind it cuz I really dont wanna be in the military ever, but yay for those who do care! I was so much more pissed that the Bush tax cuts got extended 2 years or that the dream act is going down than happy about this. Obama is a spineless failure of a president and the Senate leadership sucks and the democrats are just getting thrown around by the republicans. Its such bullshit, but whatever... <br />I know im missing stuff in there, and could think of more to say if my mind wasnt so foggy from allergies.<br />Have a good day!<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-28593662550852163482010-12-14T13:42:00.004-07:002010-12-14T14:19:43.642-07:001 YEAR ON BLOGGER!!! XDHey! so today is my 1 year anni. on blogger and it is also the 1 year anniversary of my most amazing and perfect dog passing away.<br /><br />Today was my BIG day for finals. Now I only have one left tomorrow and an essay to write and I will be DONE for a whole month! I go t like 2 hours of sleep last night so I took a concerta to get me through the day, but mostly it made me dizzy and nauseous. But I am fairly certain I will pass all my classes and keep my scholarship.<br /><br />My grandmother friend requested me on facebook today. It kinda took me off guard, but my mother forbade me to add her because of all the profanity i use and all my gay stuff (my grandma is mormon). Also my god mother it thinking about moving for the 2nd time in 3 years, but I doubt she will go through with it. so always goes through odd phases. But if she does it wont be more than 20 or so miles. She really gets on my nerves a lot, which i feel guilty for because I owe most of the good stuff in my life to her, but ever since her partner died she hasn't been the same.<br /><br />I have some money again! I got $100 from my parents for Mickolosh, which i am sure is spelled wrong, but it is the Czech christmas basically, and we celebrate it in the forst week or two of December because I am seldom home for actual Christmas, and then I have also been selling back my text books to UNM. I am gonna try to keep up my no spending streak though.<br /><br />I am really thinking about applying for a billion scholarships and grants for next year or the year after and going to a school in New England for a semester or a year. probably Boston University, because I have connections there thanks to the NSLC and it is a good school.<br /><br />I have reestablished contact with all 4 of my friends that i have been growing distant with, although i dont see any of them being what they were. I also made some new friends! Both were from this online website, Stickam. One is this really cool druggie kid who is one of the most interesting people i have ever met and he is really sweet and actually smart. The other is this younger kid who just seems to be totally lost with life and is having problems, so I am just kinda there as a distraction. Im kinda lost myself while my BFF is in Brazil... but I could be worse.<br /><br />So that about all the news.<br /><br /><span style="font-weight:bold;">I want to thank all of you for helping me out so much over the past year and I am really proud to have 87 followers!!! And of course all my phantom readers. I plan on being here at this tome next year. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!</span><br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">And dont forget about my tumblr and formspring links on the side!!! I need tumlbr followers and I love having questions on my formspring. And comments are always welcome on here!!! Haha, im done advertising myself now. :)</span><br /><br />Im memoriam:<br /><a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjR1ES3nTypM1Zk1lwWTWj_q6ngA-F0eTyCEaKbpGGBaLhOqfPf2ximIAqfN3g2IhJWdqlySwbJIe7o6R44fAfYQw4NY4tziS8kCtP3xK5qtgKOxwnb7pIM7XZfQphLDRlX5iZw9dAP724/s1600/030406_1904a.jpg"><img style="display:block; margin:0px auto 10px; text-align:center;cursor:pointer; cursor:hand;width: 150px; height: 200px;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjR1ES3nTypM1Zk1lwWTWj_q6ngA-F0eTyCEaKbpGGBaLhOqfPf2ximIAqfN3g2IhJWdqlySwbJIe7o6R44fAfYQw4NY4tziS8kCtP3xK5qtgKOxwnb7pIM7XZfQphLDRlX5iZw9dAP724/s200/030406_1904a.jpg" border="0" alt=""id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5550648448752627458" /></a><br /><br />1995-Dec 14, 2009.<br />Shasta, the dog I will forever and always love above all others. I miss you baby!!! :'(<br /><333333<br />Haha, writing that ^ made me cry.Anton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-8847754345575568632010-12-09T18:04:00.002-07:002010-12-09T18:32:26.705-07:00FinalsHaaaaay!<br /><br />So things have been quite hectic with the semester wrapping up. I finished one class today and I have 3 finals next week along with a portfolio to put together and an essay to write and a bunch of data analysis. I will be very happy when it is all over! But I have a month long break to look forward to. Today at school I got into an argument with some dumb fuck Jehovah's Witnesses about evolution and being gay. I took some of their coffee and disproved like all of their points and had a damn good time doing it.<br /><br />I went ahead with the bringing my friend some booze thing and it went well. We had a nice day together and she really enjoyed it. I'm not sure what her plans with her BF are at this point. The same day my other friend from my normal group that my stupid friend gave up for her BF asked us both to come and help her with a test. It was the 1st time we have all been together since August. It was kinda awkward but nice at the same time. I dont know what the future holds in that respect.<br /><br />Yesterday I was planning on hanging out with Jordan but he decided to go on a date with this one guy later in the day, and then had the nerve to text me about how great he was which was fucking annoying. i am debating if I plan on spending any time with him and my other friends this weekend. So after that let down I went to the queer straight alliance at UNM which was fucking boring cuz there are now only like 30 or so people that go now, compared to the 100+ at the beginning of the semester and all the ones left are so god damn annoying!!! But I didnt wanna go home and I though I might find someone of interest, but no such luck There was a white elephant gift exchange though. I got a Princess sash, 5 condoms and some yummy chocolate. They also had elections, so hopefully now there will be some better stuff going on at the meetings.<br /><br />I TALKED TO LUIS FOR LIKE 2 WHOLE MINUTES TODAY! haha, its been since August since I talked to him... He is still quite adorable, but I need to hang out with him some more... bleh.<br /><br />i have decided I am going to ask this kid I met on connexion who lives in Utah on a date while I am there this break. I totally expect him to say no, but just asking is a step for me.<br /><br />Thats about it.<br /><3<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-18933345343650086242010-12-04T16:33:00.002-07:002010-12-04T17:54:13.116-07:00Reoccurring InsanityA week and a half until finals. I dont know where this first semester of college went. I have a lot to do before it is over.<br /><br />The bulk of the week was relatively uneventful. Early on I got an Android smart phone and I love it. Thursday there was a cool local business-craft fair thing at UNM and I got a really really cool necklace thingy. I decided that besides food and christmas presents I am not allowing myself to buy anything else till a make at least $200, from either my christmas money or from the job I intend on getting in spring.<br /><br />Yesterday we had a mud hut party though. I haden't been drunk in almost 5 weeks, so i enjoyed drinking a bit. I tried a little spice in addition to the booze and the effect was amazing! Jordan came over about 4 or 5 hours before everyone else and I helped give him a Mohawk. Then we went down to Central (main street Albuquerque) and went to the Flying Star (best restaurants in New Mexico). He also invited this one guy he was supposed to go on a date with to meet us there which kinda annoyed me, but I also wanted to meet him, but he didn't come. There was also a cute waiter there and Jordan almost asked for his number, but I convinced him not to by pointing out all of his flaws so Jordan lost interest... cuz I'm awesome like that! <br /><br />We then went to Urban Outfitters and ran into Jordan's adorable little hipster-indie lesbian friend and hung out with her for an hour or so... she was really awesome! Jordan annoyed my by referring to me as his date twice while we were with her... He was definitely taunting me with what I cant have, Then we waited around for Jordan's ex-best friends douchey boyfriend to get off work so we could buy ADHD meds from him that are a miracle for studying and paying attention. Then we headed back to my house and met up with our other friends.<br /><br />I need to get my wisdom teeth out soon too. I'm like a yearish late getting around to it and my piece of shit mom was supposed to get me into the dentist for a consult in november, but that didnt happen and now i wont have time between now and when I go to Utah.<br /><br />My sleep pattern has been really fucked up lately. I have been alternating between sleeping 3-4 hours and then sleeping 11-12 hours. I HATE it! I have also been having lots of bad dreams. There was that one about my dad drinking again, then there was one where Jordan fell in love with me and I was happy... until I woke up. And then there was an odd one where Kyle (you may remember him as a friend my group had in the spring) came back into the group. I also have been feeling really really fat lately, and I cant think of any healthy ways to solve this problem that I have the motivation for....<br /><br />I have almost seen Luis a couple times this past week, but I have yet to hang out with him. IDK if I like him or Jordan more, all I know is I dont have a chance with either of them, and Im thankful I'm not as obsessed with them as I was with John. I want them equally as bad though.<br /><br />I am planning on giving some alcohol to my friend who left the group because she didnt wanna do 'bad things' anymore. Since her boyfriend made her decide that she has been absolutely miserable cuz she has no friends and she wants to smoke and drink again. Not only did her emotionally abusive boy friend make her give up things she likes, but he continues to chew tobacco. So I have decided im going to get her just slightly buzzed, then she will tell her BF and he will get all pissy and hopefully it will expedite their imminent break up. I want him to lose the thing that means most to him cuz he is such an ass, she deserves to be totally alone for what she did to all of us. Then hopefully in a month or so we can maybe even accept her back into the group cautiously, but without the source of her corruption, she could maybe be our friend again. Yes, I am aware I'm an awful selfish person.<br /><br />So I guess thats about all it.<br />Loves yas<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-37668741018834061672010-11-27T18:37:00.004-07:002010-11-27T23:40:11.280-07:00AloneToday has been lonely. Yes, I spent last night with friends and yes I have been talking to people for most of the day, but it has still been fucking lonely. I have been missing everyone. Old friends, friends from other states, my best friend, Jordan who's in Texas, Sonia who is behind on school work from being sick, Steph who has been working her ass of to support herself because her father wont help out his lesbian daughter, Luis, my godmother, how people were before they changed, people I have made up in my own insane head and now Bri and Jess, who I said goodbye to yet again today. The faces of my past and even those of my present are haunting me. To what I can attribute this, I have no idea.<br />Besides this I have been better than miserable, even happy at some points. One of the people I miss came back in my life today when she text me, although nothing will ever be the same again.<br /><br />Black friday shopping was enjoyable and I spent very little money, and what I did spend, i spent on movies I really wanted. I am kinda broke though and I'm considering another job. And I have to do X-mas shopping for my friends... bleh.<br /><br />I just got back from seeing Inception for the 2nd time with my dad and our neighbor. I dont know what the fuck possessed me to do such, because I hate spending time with my father, and our neighbor annoys me when he gets together with my dad. I have also come to the conclusion that my prior assertions that I wont cry at my fathers funeral, were false. I now believe that there will be tears in my eyes when that man dies. Tears of joy. Every second I am in his presence shreds the very fabric of my soul. Sober or not, I hate the man.<br /><br />I briefly saw Luis in parson today, I didnt talk to him, but I did at least get to confirm that he is not just a figment of my imagination. Unless of course my frustration with not seeing him for months has driven me to hallucinations. I had a brief exchange with his brother though... nothing exciting. I am curious to what they have heard about me from other sources. I'm sure somebody in the world has outted me to them. They are some of the last people to know. I would have told them if I ever saw them anymore. And they are friendly with John, so I am curious to see how badly he has been dragging my name through the mud.<br /><br />So here are some things of more artistic value than my ramblings. I feel like these songs apply to an extent in some aspects of my life, and I'm not exactly sure why i wrote the other thing, but there it is.<br /><br /><span style="font-style:italic;">We hunt for peace within ourselves and seek out love where ever else. I fight for you, but to no avail. Without your touch, my happiness will cease, and my will to live flies away like a flock of wild geese. I crave your heart, but should that fail, i'll accept my place within this hell.</span><br /><br /><object width="400" height="325"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/K_9nIljBYTc?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x006699&color2=0x54abd6"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/K_9nIljBYTc?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0x006699&color2=0x54abd6" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="400" height="325"></embed></object><br />I like the last part of this song a lot.<br /><br /><object width="400" height="325"><param name="movie" value="http://www.youtube.com/v/MqAkTyprC_o?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0xe1600f&color2=0xfebd01"></param><param name="allowFullScreen" value="true"></param><param name="allowscriptaccess" value="always"></param><embed src="http://www.youtube.com/v/MqAkTyprC_o?fs=1&hl=en_US&color1=0xe1600f&color2=0xfebd01" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" allowscriptaccess="always" allowfullscreen="true" width="400" height="325"></embed></object><br />January would be more accurate. I miss January. But I <3 Taylor!<br /><br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-88031108616416577122010-11-27T11:47:00.001-07:002010-11-27T11:47:47.795-07:00What is your biggest regret of the past year? What would you say is your biggest accomplishment? What will your new year's resolution be? (I know, it's early for this but I wanted to ask before I forgot)<p class="formspringmeAnswer">Biggest Regret(s): Falling outs with Kyle, Brit, IttyK and IttyK's sister, Taking John to prom, *that* party, Not having a boy friend, Ben, I could list quite a lot here, but those are the main ones<br /><br />Biggest Accomplishment(s): Continuing to come out of my shell, making new friends, graduating, starting college and getting a job.<br /><br />New Years Resolution(s): Continue becoming a person i like better than the old me.Nothing really specific though...</p><p class="formspringmeFooter"> <a href="http://formspring.me/Antonhawk?utm_medium=social&utm_source=blogger&utm_campaign=shareanswer">Ask me anything</a></p>Anton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-124709317778877471.post-77008615140900670742010-11-25T17:19:00.004-07:002010-11-25T17:41:09.837-07:00Happy Thanksgiving!Or... as I posted on facebook: "Happy steroid-injected, overly processed, genetically modified, unethically raised, cross contaminated turkey day that signifies the relationship we had with the native people 400 years ago that ended in a genocide and continues to produce social problems."<br />Haha, cuz I clearly always look on the bright side of things! Anyways, today has been relaxing. I have been hanging out a lot, and very late with my friends so I'm happy to have a down day. Jordan isn;t her for thanks giving and I hate not having him here, seeing as hes one of those 3 irreplaceable people in my life, and this is just a taste of what it will be like when he leaves in a few months for Texas... Whish will be really hard on me and Sonia.<br /><br />Tomorrow I am gonna do a bit of Black Friday shopping, but I'm limiting myself to $50, which will be difficult for me.<br /><br />I have been thinking about getting snake bites (lip piercings) for a while. I would just have 2 small studs on each side, and now my friends are trying to force me to get them, and even talked to the person who might do it about getting it done, but I havent decided 100% yet if i want them. I'd prefer my tattoo, but I'm waiting for some more money for that...<br /><br />I have been some what of an emotional wreck when I am alone lately, except for today, and I have these sudden onsets of misery and its really no fun.<br />In other news, 5 must see movies I have watched recently:<br />1. Harry Potter 7 (duh)<br />2. Girl, Interrupted<br />3. Howl's Moving Castle<br />4. Spirited Away<br />5. Hard Candy<br /><br />I have considered switching my major to pharmaceutics. Pharmacists make so much money, and they dont have an <span style="font-weight:bold;">incredibly</span> hard job. Its more chemistry than I would like, but I think it might pay off in the end.<br /><br />Anyways, I gotta go do stuff with my neighbors now. They are coming over for Thanksgiving desert. I really wish Luis was among the neighbors coming over. I miss seeing him a lot.<br />~AntonAnton's Haushttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11894984544479207158noreply@blogger.com2